Thursday, October 25, 2012

Change Your Stars

Yes, I read it and approve mightily. But what happens when you just get a little tired? Get told one day that you have a brain tumor only to be told the next oh your MRI showed you're fine. Hallelujah right? Right.
But what do you do when you get the call that one of your children has leukemia? Fall right to your knees and plan on staying there for awhile.

I am not enjoying this year, there have been far too many losses and tragedies. I have hope that the one coming will prove much less painful.
So I am making a commitment to change my stars, and those of my children because I really am a Jew at heart and I can damn it!

Life can be and often is unfair, I have no control over much of that. But what I do have control over is how I let it affect me. And I intend to do my very best to stay large and in charge of that. I am so damn sick of my life reading like some second rate soap opera I think a huge overhaul is necessary and in the making.

The original article may be found here at 

Please know that any and all prayers on my daughter's behalf are much welcomed and appreciated. Please also know that I humbly beg for all that can be gotten in the way of prayer and good thoughts.


fernvalley01 said...

Always in my prayers my friend, and your loved ones as well

Cut-N-Jump said...

I second what Fern V said. Hope for the best.

Dena said...

There are days when I wish I could run away and join the circus or something. Anything to not have to think about what is really happening in every day life.
Whatever happened to being able to squeeze your eyes shut tight and repeat it is not real until the nightmare faded?
Did I mention I am pissed? I am. Working my way to a quiet kind of furious. But it isn't my world so I don't get to make the rules.

wolfbitch said...

Dena, you and yours are in my prayers as well. I agree, it would be great if squishing our eyes closed and wishing hard would make all the crappy grown-up shit go away. But it doesn't.

I still sometimes squish my eyes closed and wish hard, but then I have to open them and deal. It's kind of fun, though, pretending for those few "OMG I AM LOSING MY MIND" seconds that acting like a child can indeed make everything better.